Be kind to yourself

The Crossfit Open is a time during the year where athletes can test their fitness, strength, skills and mental toughness. Many athletes sign up with the aim to make it to Regionals, others do it for the pure sense of community and because they love doing Crossfit. This year, I signed up for the Open because I wanted to see where my skills and abilities featured against the rest of the Crossfit world. I know I am nowhere near the best, but I am the best that I have ever been.

When 17.1 was released, all I saw was a shit tonne of dumbbell snatches and many burpee box jump overs in between, which happen to be quite a mental goat for me. After watching Samantha Briggs crush it in 10:14, I figured I could do it in under 15:00. Saturday abruptly arrived and it was time to face the burpees… and 150 dumbbell snatches. I started off feeling great and set a good pace. But, once I hit the set of 40, my back and hamstrings started screaming and it took everything I had to keep going.

Those last 50 snatches were painful and difficult and I slowed down A LOT! I took way too many breaks to try shake out my back and legs and ended up with a disappointing time of 18:20.

For the last couple of days I have been looking at the leader board as well as all the social media posts with everyone’s times and I just could not help comparing my score to theirs and kept telling myself how poorly I performed. I then attempted to redo the workout, but gave up in the round of 30 snatches. My back just was not having it.

Upon reflection, I have been way too hard on myself and have realised that ONE workout does not define how good of an athlete you are. I kept telling myself that I’m just not good enough because my score is so average. This is ridiculous negative self-talk that is not going to benefit me in anyway. I did the best that I could given the situation and there are four more workouts coming up where I can redeem myself.

I was punishing myself mentally and emotionally for not doing as well as expected. Don’t do that! Everyone has their strengths and weaknesses and that is the reason we do things like the Open, so we can identify the areas we need to work on. Clearly I need to get stronger and increase my back endurance! Probably work on my dumbbell snatch technique too! But that’s OK! One of the reasons I do this sport is because you can never truly be done getting better. There is always something to work on.

So, morale of the story: Don’t be hard on yourself. Give everything 100%. If you didn’t do as well as expected, recognise where you went on, tell yourself it is OK, and move on. Failing is part of the journey to success. No one ever came out on top without failing first.


The power of positivity

I’ve had my fair share of negative thoughts and they still do cross my mind every once in a while. Last year I went through one of the hardest times of my life when my boyfriend of five years broke up with me. My life as I know it did a comple 180 and I was pretty harsh on myself for quite a while. It didn’t help that I was, and still sometimes do, struggling with my skin… So negative self talk became quite a problem for me. This translated into every part of my life… My varsity work, friendships, workouts and my perception of myself. For a couple of weeks I was a mess and did not see myself in a good light at all.

After reading multiple articles, watching many YouTube videos and of course a lot of encouragement from my family (especially mom) and friends, I finally started seeing the bright side of life. It clicked that I had to change my mindset of myself and my capabilities. I needed to stop bringing myself down and concentrate on the good aspects of my life and myself instead of constantly picking on everything that I thought was bad. 

Slowly but surely I began replacing my negative thoughts with positive ones… And you know what? Everything started to get better. My training began to improve- I was getting stronger without having to torture myself. I started feeling more energetic and happier. Good people started coming into my life and I began making new friends. 

I truly do believe in the power of your mind. You can do absolutely anything you set your mind to, but you have to be positive and stop doubting yourself. Be kind to yourself. Tell yourself these things everyday and I promise it will change your life

“I am beautiful”

“I am strong and capable”

“I am happy”

“I am energetic and positive”

Be the best version of yourself. Yes, you will have bad days. Embrace them. Don’t pretend, feel the pain and sadness but then let it go and find that happiness again. Life is a wonderful journey no matter what path you’re on. 

“living your dream is the true reward of gard work and passion”